Another day has passed….

Great… it's already 11:29 pm and I still haven't blogged?!

Just kidding.. I guess right now, typing this post in notepad can already be considered as blogging!

Anyways, the reason for the delay is my dad downloading some stuff for his pocket pc. Yup.. the blogger in boogie.i.ph is the one that I'm talking about. He's my dad, and he works as a surgeon.

My dad seems to not want me to surf the internet at all tonight although he told me a little while ago that he'll let me surf after he's done. tsk.
guys.

It's a good thing my mom told him to let me surf for 30 minutes. (OMG.. just 23 more minutes left! )

There is an upside to this situation though, at least I'll get less radiation tonight!

~ Ok, to the happenings of this day.

Mawicar, my best friend in schooool, told me this afternoon to get someone else to fall for. Damn, Q's going bye-bye.. Buh-bye? haha…

It's not gonna be easy but as Marshie said, this feeling would fade away eventually, among other things…

*sigh*. He was there in the terrace this afternoon. Bax and I just happened to stop by that corridor. Bax was asking me stuff about scrabble because he will be the representative of their classroom and the game of which, he knows little about so he came to me for info since I've been playing scrabble for a while now.. Since elementary, I still remember.. Chidi and I were the representatives of our school in the NDEA.. oooh… I could miss those days but then again..
I have friends now! That's something I never had before!

Carrying on, he looked at me. He didn't smile. I didn't either,
I pouted.
Acted to not see him.
Look away.
And continued explaining the game to Bacsarpa. With my usual, matter of fact tone.

"I only hope Q knows what he's doing. I only hope that he knows what he wants at this moment in time. I hope that he would be happy."

Hey! That's considered good wishing already right?!

haha.. I should stop hoping. Kanina I hoped again.. *sigh*.. it's not good.

I'm looking forward to noticing other guys. Just like Car said. I think [south-east] wouldn't be a bad start. She suggested Carl, but he already has a girlfriend that of which has a name almost similar to mine! Hehe. di ko na sasabihin ang name.. *giggle* That would be too obvious. But he's out of the list anyway.

I'm not really looking forward to other escorts to the Senior's ball though. If I don't get to go with Q..

OK, OK! what-ev. I'm gonna try go with someone else!! There are tons of fish in the sea.

~ Oh yeah, the 2nd Unit Test is coming up. Oh.. I hope I can really excel this time. 1st grading's performance wasn't really that stunning. I wanna do well with my academics! I wanna be the vale! (– not for the honor though, more about getting no tuition fees…! That would surely make my parents' load lighter!

I'll try to follow the guides to effective studying from the book my mom bought for me way back. The book itself is with Monica right now. I'm too lazy to really read or listen to it, so I lent it to her. But I read the part saying how to study for exams and such. I'll try to make reviewers tomorrow.

As much as possible, I'll avoid neglecting questions because they seem irrelevant. Also, I have a knack for making things complicated though they're truly easy. I can't afford to make things complicated. I will try to make the questions in my reviewer simple but complete!

Wish me luck on tomorrow's review making!

Wish me luck on tomorrow's "It started with a kiss" watching!
(fan girl side:) Michael!!!

And wish me luck on the Physics and Math remedials tomorrow! (Hope no more encounters with Q with or without ____ *crosses fingers*)

Good night!

Iyakin ka kasi!!

These things happen….

*sigh*.. Why the hell did I cry for that spoiled milk?

Lol! (oo nga pala.. magtatagalog tayo ngayon!  first post in mostly tagalog.. wee…. *sigh*, sana ganun din ka saya ang content…)

Sa totoo lang, tingin ko hindi fair na isulat agad ni Sir na tardy ako dun sa attendance booklet. Gasp, inis na inis ako ngayon kina Philip. Sila kasi yung nagsabing wala ako sa chair ko pagpasok ng guro namin sa Math, kaya yun– gi-mark niya akong absent eh sa totoo naman, nandun lang ako sa faucet, umiinom ng tubig.

Mas nakakainis pa, di tinanggap ng guro namin yung paliwanag ko kaya yun, kinailangan kong kumuha ng tardy slip galing sa prefect. Hay.. pangalawang araw pa nga lang ng "Attendance Contest" eh, meron na namang kaming late. At sa hapon pa! Ako!

Ewan ko kung bakit, di ko rin maintindihan ang sarili ko kung minsan. Pero pagdating ko dun sa prefect, nang itanong ni Maam Aleman kung bakit ako na-late, bigla na lang ako napatunganga at umiyak. Di na tuloy siya nagalit (narinig ko kasing, strikto ang guro naming yun sa mga late).

Iyak ako nang iyak. Nagtanong nang konte si Maam Aleman kung bakit at sinabi ko sa kanyang minarkahan ako ng late ni Sir Albete. Di ko akalaing pagsisisihan ko pa sa huli yung mga impormasyong binigay ko sa kanya–kahit na naging ingat-ingat talaga ako sa pagpili ng mga sasabihin para hindi naman masisi ang guro naming -piglet- na yun (wala naman siyang atraso sakin eh..).

Matapos ang lahat ng mga asignatura sa hapon, nagpalipas muna ako nang oras sa klasrum namin at tumulong sa paglilinis. Wala pa kasi yung mga magiging kasama ko sa review namin sa NDEA and Marist Meets kaya nag-scrub muna ako sa klasrum. Maya2x, sinabi ni Philip samin na nakita niya raw na nag-uusap (o nagsisigawan) ang dalawa naming gurong sina: Mrs. Norma Aleman (English IV) at Mr. Damian Albete (Math IV). Marahil tungkol yun sa nangyari kaninang first period ni Sir sa hapon. Marahil.. tungkol rin yun sa luhaan kong pagpunta sa office ng prefect.

Sa totoo lang, ang saya ko nung marinig kong inaaway ni Maam Aleman si Sir Albete tungkol dun sa naging late ko kaninang first period. Di ko kasi matanggap sa mga panahong iyon, na ayaw tanggapin ni Sir ang excuse kong pag-inom ng tubig. Sa isip ko: Kasalanan ko bang na-late siya ng konte sa klase at di niya ako naabutan? Kasalanan ko bang nagseselos na naman yung mga taong nakaupo sa harapan ko kaya pagkatanong ni Sir kung sinong absent, ako agad ang pinuna nila? As in, naiinis talaga ako nun. Naiinis akong ayaw niyang magbigay man lang ng panandaliang excuse. Gaano ba ako kadalas maging late para di niya bigyan ng kahit anong amnesty? Hindi naman sa gusto kong maging espesyal na estudyante, pero ang OA niya naman. Late agad! Eh andun naman talaga ako eh! nakakainis!

Di ko na sasabihin kung sino pero may nakapagsabi rin sakin na marahil ganun na lang ang ka-striktuhan ni Sir sa mga late dahil gusto niyang ang section niyang: St. Matthew, ang manalo sa Attendance Contest. Di naman ata yun fair!

*sigh*.. Yun ang mga iniisip ko nung una.

Kaya, ang saya ko nung malamang, kinokorekt siya ni Maam Aleman. Pero grabe talaga ang naging consequence ng pag-iyak iyak kong yun at pagpapaliwanag ko kanina. Hay.. malas naman.

Ilang sandali ang nakalipas, at biglang dumating si Sir Albete sa klasrum namin. Umupo siya sa teacher's table ng klasrum namin. Pawis na pawis ako sa pag-su-scrub nang sabihan niya akong lumapit. Nagalit siya sakin. Sinabi ko raw kay Maam Aleman na siya yung na-late sa klase. Hindi ko raw yun sinabi sa kanya! Ang sabi ko, sinabi ni Sir na 12:50 na nung dumating ako sa klasrum. Pero sa isip ko rin, tingin ko na-late nga talaga si Sir. Narinig ko kasi sa isang klasmeyt ko na 12:45 na nung dumating si Sir. Nga lang, nag-joke-joke pa sila kaya yun, mga 12:50 pa niya napansing nawawala ako. Pero wala talaga akong directang sinabi na na-late nga si Sir sa klase namin.

Sa tingin ko aware rin naman si Sir na na-late siya kaya gi-try niya ang ibang stratehiya. Gi-re-enlighten niya ako sa polisiya niya na dapat pagpasok niya sa klase, nasa naiatang na mga upuan kami kung hindi, i-ma-mark niya kami ng absent. Kung lalabas man kami, dapat magpaalam. Di na ako nakaimik dahil alam ko naman ang tungkol sa polisiyang iyon. Malabo na sakin ang mga sumunod na pangyayari. Pero ewan ko, napaiyak na naman ako at nagsimulang mag-scrub na lang uli, papalayo. Hindi ko man lang napansin na umalis na pala si Sir.

Lumapit ang ilan kong mga kaklaseng babae para mag-comfort sakin. *sigh*.. patawad po, iyakin ako. Yun attribute kong yun talaga ang nagpalala sa sitwasyong ito kung tutuusin. Naikwento sakin ng isa kong kaibigan yung tungkol sa pagkalat ng balitang, 'pagka-unfair ni sir sa attendance.' hay. ang bilis talagang kumalat ng tsismis. Marahil nadungisan yung pangalan ni Sir Albete kaya galit na galit talaga siya sakin kanina.

Ayoko ng ganito. Ang ikinakatakot ko pa, baka di nako makakataas ng greyds sa asignatura niya kung magkakaroon ng masamang aura sa pagitan namin. Guro ko pa naman siya sa Math (-my most hated subject). Naku.. honor pa naman ako.. baka bumaba ang standing ko sa listahan dahil sa insidenteng ito.

*sigh*. Pakiramdam ko, ang sama-sama ko na naman. Stupid Ashen, ba't ka umiyak?! Tuloy, na exaggerate ni Maam Aleman yung pangyayari at kinausap ng masisinsinan si Sir Albete. Tuloy, mas lalong lumala ang problema!

Iyakin talaga ako mula pa pagkabata. Spoiled milk, iniiyakan ko.

Ewan ko nga ba. At some point, naiisip ko ngang part sa reason kung bakit ako umiiyak kanina ay ang di ko pag-iyak sa kawalan ng pag-asa sa crush kong si Q. Marahil na surpress ang sorrows ko for his loss, kaya nung nagkaroon ng pagkakataong maaring magbunsog ng ilang luha mula sa aking mga mata, bumuhos ang sama ng loob.

Hay… ang malas naman. Dalawang teacher na ngayon ang proproblemahin ko. Si Sir Albete (na dinungisan ko ang pangalan) at si Maam Aleman (na pinahiya ko kay Sir Albete). Hay…

Ang malas naman.. di to magandang start sa 2nd grading…

Hay!!! Ang malas ko naman!! Iyakin…!!!

*sniff-sniff* Ba't nga ba wala akong crying smiley sa mood folder ko sa Photobucket…

Nothing bad happened!

*whew!*

(gonna encode this in English this time!)

Good. Nothing bad happened today! Gotta love the one above!!

Maam Aleman told our class this morning about that little insident yesterday. But fortunately, she didn't go any farther than noticing it. Instead of giving an in depth description, she told us that we should arrive early to avoid those kinda sitches. relief for me!

Sir Albete on the other hand… Well.. I didn't expect what happened this afternoon during our first period..

As Sir Jaime (an elem. adviser of mine once said:) "Expect the unexpected."

I didn't expect to live through our lesson without any at all notice from him!

Relief again! *whew!*

Guess he must've been satisfied with my crying results yesterday so he didn't bother noticing the insident during class hours.. fortunately

– *sigh*.. I am so relieved! Thanks God! Thanks Mama Mary!

Ok to more happy thoughts!

I think [south-east] gave me signs today.

#1: During a opening prayer in a morning class, he tapped my shoulder with a fan. I quickly looked back at him, but he pretended not to have done anything. I shrugged that sign off. Lol, our classmates must've seen that…

#2: [south-east] by the way, sits south-east of me (that's why I dubbed him that name!). During another class, for no obvious reason, he just pulled the design extension of my blouse (sorry, I don't know what it's called eh… basta yung parang nakakabit gud sa front hanggang likod ng mga uniform ng babae). I asked him why and he said something like: "wala lang." KSP?

#3: (This sign was rather annoying..) During our Math class this afternoon I felt awkward to get my book from the back with Sir Albete being present and all, so when I saw that [south-east] was gonna go to the back to get his book, I asked him to fetch mine as well . I didn't think he would slide it towards me!
I didn't see this but I think right after he got my book, he simply slid it (as in, yung slide sa floor) till it got to my row. Parang tinapon niya na yung libro ko ah.. *sigh*… ano ba yan.. Pero I thanked him anyway… I wonder what that was all about though..

Ok, I guess that should be it for today!

Oh, and the MSLC had a meeting this afternoon. At first, Kim assigned me to help in the Intermission numbers but when Lovely finally got back from accompanying Mark in the business office, Kim agreed that we exchange places. Lovely took my place in helping in the Intermissions and I took her place and would be the quiz master for the Team Quiz in the Intramurals. Neat huh? I've always wanted to be a quiz master! Oh.. I only hope that my little voice would be clear and would sound great to the contestants and the audience.. I wanna do well in the task assigned to me!

Other than helping in the Team Quiz, I volunteered to collect some quotes for the Message Sent: MSLC hari ng padala fund-raiser that our committee would launch. Oh, that would be so cool! And I get to share some of the quotes I've been collecting too!

The next meeting would be on Monday, September 18. I should have some quotes collected by then. Oh yeah, feel free to e-mail or give me some! If you want~

The questions for the Team Quiz on the other hand are due on Friday. Supposed to be, they would be sports based questions *yawn*. But oh well… Glendy and Mark had better help!

Well, there! Laundry and books are waiting for me! Ashen (~ edit from the future: Reishin po.. import kasi to from my old blog eh.. ) signing out!

Q.

I will not do anything stupid.

My heart aches, but I will not let my feelings control me.

I am a lone knight.

Right now, at this phase of time, I will not search for a knight.

I'm not a guardian needing protection.

Neither will I desire it.

For the one I hope for, is no more.

For the one I dream of, is no more.

There is nothing, that would change that fact.

Not unless.. *sigh*

My heart aches at the sight, but I will not falter.

If this is what will make you happy.. then go ahead.

I had hoped.. but my hope was in vain,

my heart breaks, but I will not cry. Not for you.

I had wished… again a mistake I made twice…

Will the rain fall on me once again?

Will I walk on that path once more?

the answer is: Yes.

But I will not blame you. So don't worry.

I didn't tell you soon enough.

I thought you knew.

If you did, I hate you for not caring.

If not… then… I.. admit.. defeat..

My last bow..

Q.