My normal day.

Gosh am I starting to hate Smart Wifi. I can't even count how many times I had to disconnect and reconnect the wires just so I could keep on surfing the internet tonight, I swear when I grow up I will not sign up for Smart Wifi's broadband dsl . It's not that their internet connection is slow (I even prefer their speed to some Internet cafes in our city) but lol, I can't stand it when their connection goes AWOL. It really gets on my nerves!

I got home a bit late tonight (at about 6:00pm) because we had a cramming practice for tomorrow's field demo. I think we have a pretty good chance of winning. Sure, we lost all our formations at the 2nd part due to lack of time (which was obviously caused by some people being absent or kidding around during practices) but compared to the formation and moves of the 3rd year—ours are much neater (Sorry mga 3rd year ah… Feel free to comment against this but I'm just stating my opinion, please don't hate me or spam bad words because of this—you'll just be humiliating yourself since I didn't really say bad words against you). I guess it's just my own opinion, after all I am a senior and I should be cheering for my own team. Go Seniors!

About tomorrow I'm a little worried about Car. She seemed angry at me for really wanting to go home this afternoon whileast she was still finding a way to buy herself a black shirt for tomorrow (Oh I'm really starting to dislike our trainer, although he is sacrificing our time for us too I just hate his sudden 'explicit' outbursts. Tawagin ba naman kaming mga girls na 'puta?'—Ooh, he really got on my nerves this afternoon.. Good thing bukas na kami mag-perform. Goodbye explicit trainor! I won't miss you ) Anyways, Car seemed quite annoyed especially when she was looking for someone to lend her p50 and I would just suddenly blurt out that I had p50 after she asked all those people (lol, I was standing next to her the whole time). Oh and an update on what I'm wearing tomorrow: I finally got someone to lend me white rubber shoes! Si Elcid, my brother's friend who always calls home, fortunately had one in store. He said it was size 5-6, I wonder if that'll fit me? I guess I'll just have to find out tomorrow .

Oh yeah, tomorrow I'll be the quizmaster in the academic contest too. Oh my gosh that reminds me of the questions I still have to conjure for the English, Vocabulary and prolly Gen. Information categories—that makes a total of about 21 questions. Shouldn't be to hard. But I better be careful in picking the words for the spelling, some of the words that I was thinking of adding came from Jefford M. I'm pretty sure he'll be one of the representatives of the 3rd year, gotta be fair you know..

Wish us luck on tomorrow's High School Days!

My Celebrity Look-alikes

* The images are resized a bit so if you want to see a bigger picture, just click on them and you will automatically find yourself in my the photo album I made just for my test results. Oh and just in case you want to find which celebrities you look like too, you can visit this site: myheritage. Enjoy!

Decided to compile "My Celebrity Look-alikes" into just one post. Hope you see a resemblance! hehe… Please comment afterwards!

• My Celebrity Look-alikes Part I

Didn't feel like sleeping yet so I went to tabulas and tried searching for Leidz' private blog (is it obvious why I was so interested in it? ) Anyways, while I was searching for it, I found a link to Anjie's blog and then in her blog I found a link to a myheritage Celebrity Look-alike test. Thought it would be interesting so I registered and gave it a go. First 2 pretty decent photos of mine were a dud so I got stuck with the one below… Interesting results though.. hahaha… Please comment!

 
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My Lonely Valentine

Unfortunately… Yes.. I am… without a partner 'valentino' on Valentines Day.
I thought for sure someone might ask me for the Seniors' Ball this coming March 20… but looks like—I thought wrong. Oh… Why not? Why not? Am I that ugly that people don't like me at all… Is it my attitude? What's wrong with me… I often ask this question to myself whenever I'm reminded of how -mate-less- my life has been so far. It's a relief to know that Kharrie, prolly the prettiest girl in our school with tons of admirers too, is alone for valentines like me but why is it that eventhough I try my best to be fun, energetic, smart, kind, thoughtful—those stuff that guys look for I don't seem to get any catch at all.

Car, a.k.a. bluefire, already has a partner for the Seniors' Ball—Jayven. She said she regretted the decision to go with him but personally, I think she made a better choice. I'd prefer Jayven over the other guy from their room who asked her today. I don't like guys who act like a girl's boyfriend when they're not. Specifically, I'm referring to those guys who touch a girl's hands/hips at nang-aakbay. That's not love—it's lust. Anyways, glad the guy from her room was too late *whew*. I won't mention any names though.

I feel rather insecure with Car already having a partner and all. What about me? What if no one asks me? What if I don't wanna go with whoever asks me? (I am so damn fuzzy when it comes to these things) Oh… If only… If only… Q… arghh. I can't stand the thought of me still liking him that much still. After all, he already has his own boo. Even fate must disagree with my feelings for him. Yesterday (Feb. 13) and Today (Feb. 14) afternoon I had the -lucky- chance of seeing him and his girlfriend walk together. I even saw him at the a flower shop in Mega this afternoon buying flowers for her.

According to 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Nowadays, I frequently read those verses—the Bible for me these days has become a source of relief for my ever wandering heart. Since it's already obvious anyways… I'll admit it—I love Q. And as the song "Wag na Wag Mong Sasabihin" by Kitchie Nadal goes… I'm ready to let him go if that would make him happy the most.

I don't agree with his chosen girl and I think he's spoiling her simply because his last girlfriend dumped him due to his own neglect but I know one thing for sure: He's not the type of guy that would force himself to like someone because people told him to. And as Car said, he's a passionate person, I guess I'm just not the one to see that.

Hay… I feel like praying again… As I think about what I might meet in college I get reminded of the fact that: I never really liked Q because he was Q in the first place. Before, I simply liked him because I needed a filler for the hole in my heart after elementary. Maybe.. that would be the case in college too. I will again find someone to fill the void that Q left behind and eventually, find it hard to let go too.

The one above might want me to be patient. He might want me to follow His son's words and to love Him above all things. I guess… maybe, if that's what He really wants for me, and that's what He knows would make me happy… Maybe I'll end up having the life that our Assistant Principal at NDKC IBEd leads too… single blessedness… 

Daydreaming is bad for your health.

— My conclusion to what’s been going on in my head nowadays.

I can’t stand it anymore! Bakit ba ganito na lang lagi ang iniisip ko
pagdating ko galing sa school?
Lagi na lang akong nangangarap na may mangyayaring maganda, lagi na lang ako
umaasa sa wala—katangahan talaga kung tutuusin pero bat ginagawa ko pa
rin?

Hay.. siguto ito ang epekto sakin ng araw ng mga puso. Habang tinitingnan ko
ang pulang papel na hugis pusong nakasabit sa sa kaliwa ko napapansin kong
ni pangalan ko lamang ay di nakasaad dun. Katangahan talagang umasa sa taong
meron ng iba—at alam kong, ayoko nang maging tanga .

Bukas ng tanghali magkakaroon ang YFC ng ‘household’ simula ng 11:40
hanggang 12:40. Magtitipon-tipon raw ang lahat ng mga YFC sa high school at
pamumunuan ang aming ‘household’ na yun ni Kuya Andy . Makikilala ko na
rin ang mga kapwa ko YFC. Nais ng mga nag-organize ng meeting na yun na
mapag-usapan ang tungkol sa nalalapit na malaking pagtitipon ng mga YFC sa
North Cotabato (patawad, nakalimutan ko ang mga detalye). Na-gi-guilty akong
isiping ang punot-dulo ng nais kong pagdalo sa household bukas ay ang
pag-asang naroon ang minahal ko nung elementary. Ang taong matalino, mabait
at laging nakangiti na nagustuhan ko sa aking kabataan. Hay… may parte ng
pagkatao kong labis ang paghiling na muli siyang makita ngunit may isa ring
bahaging nagsasabing masasaktan lang ulit ako kaya wag na lang sana siya
sumipot.

Sinasabi ng ilan kong kaklase na mayabang ako. Tama naman sila, pero
pagdating sa mga asignaturang ganito nanliliit ako. Di ko ito gustong
pag-usapan dahil alam kong di naman ako kagandahan para magustuhan nino man.
Kanina nga lang nagsumbatan na naman kami ni Bo at nung tinanong ng isang
kapwa kaklase namin kung kami raw ba ang magiging magka-partner sa prom,
sinabi kong “mas gugustuhin ko pang maging kapartner ang aso” (aso to me =
q). Sinumbatan naman ako ni Bo na ayaw niya ring ako ang makapartner niya,
ay yabang ko raw kasi at lagi ko siyang minamaliit (di nako magdadahilan,
alam ko naman mali ang ginawa ko. Tatahimik na lang siguro ako sa susunod
kapag nariyan siya). Marahil ako lang sa amin ang inisip na mabuti yun.
Gusto ko talaga ng mga aso eh. Sila ay loyal, nakakatuwa at laging masaya
pag nakikita ang kanilang amo. Ayon rin sa aking Zodiac sign na Horse,
nababagay ako sa isang taong pinanganak sa taon ng mga Aso (tulad na lang ng
aking ama).

Di talaga ako magaling magtagalog. At ngayong mga araw ito na marahil ang
aking ikatatlong attempt na mag-post. Kapag binabasa ko kasi ang aking
nagawang sulatin, di ko maiwasang isipin—ganito na ba kalala ang grammar
ko? Bakit pati ako mismo, di ko maintindihan ang post ko?

Siguro epekto lamang ito ng paglipas ng panahon. Araw ng mga puso, araw ng
mga puso—minsan hinihiling kong di na lang sana ako tumaba at naging
chubby para di naman ako mangulila o naunahan ng iba sa taong gusto ko. O
kay hirap naman magkagusto sa cute–ang malas. Hay… nagsasawa nakong
maging tanga, masarap matulog. Gagawin ko na lang ang mga requirements ko
para di ko na sila isipin.

Nakakainis maging estudyante

Ayoko na, sawa nakong mangarap ng gising!

Lagi na lang ganito ang iniisip ko tuwing umuuwi ako ng bahay galing sa school at nagsisimula na naman isipin ang tungkol sa mga iniibig ko. Hay, nakakainis naman, ang malas. Normal lang siguro ito para sa iba pero para sakin, ayoko na. Lagi na lang nasasayang ang oras ko—mabuti nga at ilang minuto matapos akong mangarap ay inaantok ako nakakatulog na lang (tulad na lang ng nangyari kanina).

Hay… ito lang siguro ang epekto sakin ng Araw ng mga Puso, may toyo na ata ang utak ko. *_*